News

I just started writing a post that I've wanted to write for months and months, about someone - without mentioning a name of course - about respect and understanding the consequences of action. But I deleted it all.
I might re write it and keep it to myself, but I decided that it is disrespectful of me to write about that person here.
The person is obviously not the sharpest knife in the drawer as a common friend once said, and in the end it is up to me whether or not I want to keep the person in my life, and how.
Easier said than done.
But instead of trying to change people, or trying to make people understand that it might not be very nice (they hurt me) to act a certain way, I have decided to just let them go - let them do their thing.
I have wonderful friends and family that love me and I love, and if someone doesn't respect me or respect our relationship (human), then it's ok, but I don't need to be a part of it.

After a few pretty intense weeks of setting things straight with certain people (plural) I can't wait for the future to come, when the stress and all is passed and we're enjoying life.

Puss

Return

Today we came back from Estonia - Tallin to be more specific.
It was a very nice trip.
It was so nice to finally spend some time with a good friend - vacation time make them scarce this time of year.
Of course, it was also nice to spend quality time with my family.

We enjoyed, talked, had fun.

I also had time to think, going over things, situations.
Things are clearer now, I feel better about things, certain that decisions were done correctly, thought through.

I still have some work to do with myself, but that will take time.

Puss

Tallin

Today we're going to Tallin, Estonia.

I am excited.
Vincent is too.
We're back on Friday.

Puss

New Energy

2 years ago 

I got myself some new energy, or hope, or whatever you would like to call it.
I have accepted my faith, so to say.

The weekend was - tranquil -  nothing special, not even any baby Vincent ):
But not to worry, he was here today and yesterday - kept my mommy and I very busy.

On Wednesday we all take off to Talling, Estonia on a mini-vacation/reunion. We (my mom, AK, Vincent and I) are meeting up with wonderful Julia aka Juliet Leclair. It will be amazing!
My last vacation before, well... you will find out when the time is right.

As you might understand we've been well updated on the horrible events of the weekend -  Swedish newspapers, and news.
But I think one of the worst clips I've seen is this one: VIDEO from BBC, it shows how chocked they must have been coming off the island.

Hugs and Kisses

Speachless

There's it much to say about the events of the past day and a half, or there's a million things to say.... Just don't know what.

The Norway massacre and bombing is just crazy. I cannot even imagine how it would feel to be haunted by a mad man with a rifle on a small island.


It is also scary, from a different perspective, that the political centre, the government was attacked in Oslo.
Moreover, I think most swedes feel the same way... It could have been us. Sweden and Norway are the same.

My mom lt a candle, and we've watched the news today in chock as young ppl tell the journalists stories of what happened.

They lived a nightmare.

Other news, Amy winehouse died... Chocker, she didn't live the healthiest life did she. Poor her family thou, and her - I guess she was a troubled person.
Let's just hope News channels and papers will be capable of seeing which of these two news should get the most coverage.

A new life

Today was a weird day.
After being woken up at 8.30 by my lovely sister, I went back to bed when Vincent and she left at 11.30.
I had a nice nap and when I woke up I decided I would start studying, it went so so since I couldnt access the documents I wanted, so tomorrow it is.
Aferwards I went to pick up my moma and we had a nice walk home.

My sister then came back, and we went to Eskilstuna on a tour... Or more like a tour of ICA Maxi where AK bought a garden yatzy.

Now I am in bed, and will try not to think about the less nice ppl I have managed to sorround myself with, and will try to think about the (more long distant) future to try to cheer myself up, and maybe enjoy a night for once.

Puss

Trust

Anyone got a tips on how to deal with trust issues?

I need to know whether or not its possible to base a (human) relationship on something  that doesn't contain trust - or respect of personal space?

I mean, what is peoples problem?
If there's a password - whether or not you know it, obtained it, whatever - it is obviously not meant for you to enter.
Why enter?
Why break that trust and go through personal content?
Not only does it show the disrespect you have for the other person, but also stupidity - if found out it will forever destroy your (human) relationship.

If you feel the need to break this trust, then there is something wrong with the relationship - how on earth would it become better to intrude like that on a persons life - in secret.
If you so badly need to know something in an email, msg or a like - ask if you can see it!

Keep your long fingers to yourselves people.
Respect privacy.

Less good

I've recently noticed how people avoid asking people how they are feeling if they can sense that the answer is anything but good.

If you notice that a person isn't acting like their usual self.
They seem down,
different
sad
angry
Why don't you ask what's wrong?
Maybe they need someone?
Maybe they just need to feel that someone cares?
It's not about solving problems, or making things better.
It's about talking, and letting them know that you're there.

It's lonely at the bottom

Friday night...

And what I am doing.
Not drinking wine, nor enjoying a cigarette or two... sadly - forbidden fruit.



This song suits a certain situation... now, in the past... that's not important.
It's weird how songs sometimes say exactly what you need them to say, in some abstract way...

Vincent day today again.

I love him!

Puss

Back in Sweden

I came back to Sweden on Monday.

I had 2½ amazing weeks; discovering new places, people and feelings. Seeing friends and family.

Panama is great. 

I recommend everyone to go there. 

Now I am back in Sweden, trying to figure out how I feel about the future. 

Things will be different, sadly not at all what I would have wanted, and probably not accompanied by who I would want, but life goes on... however boring and bad it feels.

I am back in Sweden enjoying the Swedish summer again with Baby Vincent. We've already had a few excursions, and will continue so. 

I've also worked on the import-export thing, and will start studying for my statistics exam tomorrow -  a month before it is.

Puss

Playa Bonita

Chiriqui

Isla Grande

Vincent yesterday