Summer thursday

Findus is enjoying the 25c's in the shadow

My Mamma

Min Mamma - my Mom is an amazing independent woman, and if I ever gave anyone the opposite impression I apologize, but you must have misunderstood.

My mom is beautiful and smart.
A kindergarten teacher, went to university, worked abroad for a while.
She owns her house and her car, she eats well, lives well and depends on no one.
She did not "suffer" from the divorce - more than emotionally.
She is not one of those weak women who is nothing without their husband, who is not capable of working and earning their own living, and who cannot create her own happiness - she's a fighter.
So again, if something I  said let someone believe that - forget it - maybe less assumptions should be made and more facts should be known in order to draw a conclusion like that - but well ppl are what they are - idioter.

Just FYI... felt that it needed to cleared out

Another thing that needs to be cleared out, I have certain values, a moral standard... ethics.
I will not expect you (the rest) to have the same moral standards as I do, and I respect that - but do not try to push me into doing something that is unethical in my (and most of the civilized worlds) eyes, and do not call me stupid for not doing it.

Air cleared - for the moment... There's more to come!

Me

In Ankara 2010

I can be a bit much to handle for some.
I have quite the mood - especially recently, as some have had to experience.
But when you really get to know me you learn that I can be trusted.
I live by: "I treat you the way you treat me". Not always the best, but it works pretty well, better than how I used to live; say yes, agree, hide, have no opinion. Most importantly it helps me seed out the wrong people.
I might come off as harsh, but I believe I am pretty fair.
I will give everyone a second chance, three even - sometimes too many chances are given = I become disappointed.
A rule that some people have learnt is: do not disappoint me. I take it to a different level - I become incredibly hurt.
In general (normal circumstances), I can be pushed pretty far.
I can take quite a lot before reacting.
But when that drop falls, the one that makes the glass full it's too late.
I am good at games - when I decide to join in.
I am mean - few people have seen this, but if  you push me - suit yourself.
It doesn't take much to make me happy - respect.
If you respect me, all is good - we will be good friends, family.
There are few reasons to why I would "stop" a friendship or a relationship;
*Not keeping in touch - or more specifically, only keeping in touch when beneficial to "you"
*No respect

But even if I am a bitch, and mean and whatever people call me, I am me, and some people actually like me the way I am.



I have amazing friends, I am not the best at keeping in touch with them, but I try to do it.

8 days

Only 8 days left.

I don't want to - I want to stay here.
But well, I got myself into this situation now I need to deal with it the best way possible.
I really do wish I could stay here thou, I don't want to leave, I don't want to leave my mom, Vincent, AK, the cats...
I wish things were different.
It makes me cry - even if I know it's useless.
But I will come back. I will make sure to come back, as soon as it's possible.
I want to be close to my family, I love them.
And to be around people you love, trust and care about is more important than anything else - I have that in Sweden not Mexico (With the exception of a few friends of course).

Mexico in 8 days...

News

I just started writing a post that I've wanted to write for months and months, about someone - without mentioning a name of course - about respect and understanding the consequences of action. But I deleted it all.
I might re write it and keep it to myself, but I decided that it is disrespectful of me to write about that person here.
The person is obviously not the sharpest knife in the drawer as a common friend once said, and in the end it is up to me whether or not I want to keep the person in my life, and how.
Easier said than done.
But instead of trying to change people, or trying to make people understand that it might not be very nice (they hurt me) to act a certain way, I have decided to just let them go - let them do their thing.
I have wonderful friends and family that love me and I love, and if someone doesn't respect me or respect our relationship (human), then it's ok, but I don't need to be a part of it.

After a few pretty intense weeks of setting things straight with certain people (plural) I can't wait for the future to come, when the stress and all is passed and we're enjoying life.

Puss

Return

Today we came back from Estonia - Tallin to be more specific.
It was a very nice trip.
It was so nice to finally spend some time with a good friend - vacation time make them scarce this time of year.
Of course, it was also nice to spend quality time with my family.

We enjoyed, talked, had fun.

I also had time to think, going over things, situations.
Things are clearer now, I feel better about things, certain that decisions were done correctly, thought through.

I still have some work to do with myself, but that will take time.

Puss

Tallin

Today we're going to Tallin, Estonia.

I am excited.
Vincent is too.
We're back on Friday.

Puss